WOW I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW I JUST WROTE A TON OUT AND LOST IT. Screw you, proboards. Literally the bane of my existence. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I was in the middle of some good stuff. Ugh. I GUESS WE'LL JUST HAVE TO SLOWLY MAKE OUR WAY THERE AGAIN, NOW WON'T WE?
Brb cutting myself tbh.
Now I don't think I'm going to bother going too in depth here with what was
originally solid narration. We already know what happened unless you're some random person. Immunity happened, it was battleship, me and Alec were in charge and I utterly slayed him 4-0. Boom, done, bye. Now, it wasn't really by any skill on my part. I was either
A): Random.orging my shots, or
B): Taking some advice from Morgan who had decent ideas about where to hit judging by where the other dudes were hitting. They didn't hit us once and I slaughtered them lolbye.
There was a mystery thing in the challenge that if you hit a certain slot, one of the people would get it unbenknownst to everyone else. I know
I didn't get it, so Alec may have, which is a slightly annoying prospect, because he's got enough power already. He doesn't need whatevertheheck the mystery thing was, too! Blech. I'll just hope it got un-hit and is left forever undiscovered.
After the challenge I may or may not have spammed
"YES" over and over in the public group chat. A+ social game! I kind of backed off and made it off as a joke but, you know, this helped me realized something... I'm actually surprised how conservative I'm being in this game? I'm usually cunty to people's faces. This game, however, I'm being cautious about it and...I'm not...particularly...sure...
why. I'm usually not this consistently nice to everyone
(yes, I've been kind of passive agressive and bitchy, but I haven't been outright aggro yet) for this long in a game. IDK, I wanna bitch someone out. It's actually kind of sad. I feel like I need to be a cunt to someone just for lolz at least once. I could. I should. I think I might.
I mean, yeah, me and Shane's interactions were hysterical to me because of the fact we'd just insult each other the whole time, but he was
Shane, y'know? Not the same. Sure, me and Morgan say cunty things about people, but stillllll. Ugh. The problem is, with this game, is insulting a lot of these people would be a lot like kicking a puppy in the face. And I like puppies.
So... it's like there's not many interesting things I can do. I can troll people's minds with Morgan and randomly say bizarre shit to confuse them, which is fun and all, but I dunnnoooo. I wanna do something kind of random.
Y'know, I seriously should have just been an ass to Cochran. I mean, I
was really passive aggressive to him, but I didn't go all the way negacunt. Which needs to happen. But no one else left is
that awful except for Sandra who finally realized how to have a conversation for...well, five seconds, today, but it was
something. She honestly does still suck though. But it's like, even if I did try something on her, she probably would just give me a one word response anyways. Yawn. Same for Pete. He's a nice enough guy, just...never...there. And kinda boring but meh.
No one is like, insidiously Cochran awful. I actually miss having an object of my hatred like that. Sure, some people here have some awful
attributes, but everybody does. No one is bad enough for me to go and hardcore mess with them. It's depressing. I really just want to entertain myself somehow. I actually feel like making myself a little goaty/cunty could actually benefit me too, since I'm like this princess jack of all trades who's amazing in all aspects and absolutely
must be taken out of the game. At least, that's virtually everyone's perception.
...Gross. I miss Cochran. I mean, no...I don't miss
Cochran, I just miss hating someone that much. No one else would be fun to screw with. Lame. Everyone else, for the most part, is
"mild annoyance" at worst. =\ UNINSPIRING.
OKAY so I went for a walk. And I realized what I want in this game right now. This is going to sound very unconventional and downright strange to most people who think winning is the only way to have fun in an ORG. But, I'm bored in this game right now due to my lack of trips to tribal. Sure, it's nice not to go, but I think that thing I did after the IC flicked a switch in my head that I'm being way too nice in this particular game for whatever reason. I wanna entertain myself somehow, and right now... I
really want someone to target me. Yes, you read that right. I want someone to target me. I want it to fail miserably, of course, and for it to backfire and someone to tell me about it...but I want someone to
try. Just so I have an excuse to screw with somebody. Totally sounds awful and crazy, I know, but I just wanna do something interesting, that's about the only thing I can think up. I hope it happens. I really, really do.
Sigh. I just came to terms with this realization. I really want to get into a fight with somebody. Why is everyone so boring I can't fight them? LAME.
Well, on the other team, Cao should be going. He apparently just volunteered to be voted off. I mean, he was going anyways, but thanks for making it easier for everyone, including yourself! And then...I mean...yeah. Is anything else even happening in this game? I'm ACTUALLY KIND OF ANNOYED right now. Something needs to happen. I don't want this to be a snoozefest. Sigh. Why did I have to realize this before I actually wrote the rest of this confessional. IDK I'm actually sort of depressed about this. When the merge happens, is it just gonna be boring? I need something fun and exciting to happen. I
neeeeeeed it. But WTF can I do?
...I can't believe I'm actually hoping people start coming after me.
I'm pretty sure we're merging after Cao goes, since in the treasure trove
(my team got to go bc we---erm, I mean, I, am awesome, and won the challenge) was an immunity challenge advantage. Morgan thought it was Sandra or Sophie because the code was 6-3, but I didn't point out it was actually 6-3-0 for them win-wise :x. I just went with it, I was lazy. We guessed one each, her Sophie, me Sandra, but we were both tragically wrong. Lame. But yeah, I don't see the point in putting that unless it's usable the round after. And unless this next round is a DOUBLE TRIBAL COUNCIL WITH IMMUNITY POSSIBLE FOR BOTH TRIBES
(which I wouldn't be surprised by at this point) I think we're merging. If we don't merge I'm going to just be convinced we never will, lol. I really hope we do.
Merge-wise...Bob wants Malaga and Pete to align. Ew.
Pete wants NuLoa Seki to stay together. Ew.
AFAIK all the girls minus Sandra want girl power. WOOT!
I don't know what the heck Sandra wants because she barely even exists, and Alec...IDK he worries me. I would want him out but I doubt anyone would go for it since he's in good with
everyone. That's what worries me. I like him and all, but EVERYONE DOES which is a huge issue, so I think I'm just going to have to settle for getting him later. -_- Even though he's transparently made F2s with both Morgan and myself. Not shady at all, Alec...not shady at all. lol
Hope is weird. She was freaking out to me about no one messaging her...then proceeded to respond to my questions about what we should do once we hit the merge 20 minutes apart and with vague answers. I don't even know what to make of it. She's paranoid, yeah, but WTF. Hopefully this alliance isn't just planning on ditching me early. I really do feel like I'm destined to be #6 in it because of my threat-status, and I'm trying to find a way out of that deep dark pit of being the lowest on the totem pole, but I'm not so sure how to progress. Me and Morgan basically swore on our lives we'd be F2 with each other so hopefully I can at least trust her? Even though I don't, lol. I think this alliance will get me a few rounds at least, but I'm not so sure about much further. Ugh. IDK what to do about
anything right now in this game.
Sorry for the lackluster conf, I'm just annoyed after losing the like, three pages I wrote out before and then realizing that I really want to do something lulzy and there's like...nothing really popping to mind.
It seems that you've been voted out, my darling. Bad luck <3. Now, while you sit here and contemplate what's just taken place, I'll go lmao elsewhere. Buh-bye." I was so close to sending that to mock his messages to me and then fuck with him, and I actually ~did~ send a first one, but then he started ranting on to me about how fucked I am now. And I found it funny how delusional he was that he thought I was on his side or something? Buzz off, kid. You suck. 
I'm usually not this desperate to make it to jury. This is def in my top 3 games I've been ~into~ before, I'm clearly even more obsessed with it than I was Palawan since I think my confessional thread here is even longer than it was there??? Could be wrong, but it seriously feels like it. But Palawan had a boringish pre-merge for me(seriously Coron had all the fun stuff happen wtf) and then I got busyish at the end of the merge and didn't confess so IDK. Whatever, I'm rambling like always.
Brb cutting myself tbh.